Mojave Viper

Today I went and visited my husband today at Camp Wilson with 2 other wives Nicole and Amanda then went again with Brittany! It was so good seeing my husband! To hold him, kiss him, hear him laugh.. I wish I could have brought him home with me! Well upon arriving home and getting on facebook i find out that some 3/7 wives are in an upheaval about us going to see our husbands! We only went out there because they asked us too and said they wouldn't get in trouble, which they didn't. Its sad seeing wives turn on others because they didn't get to see or talk to their husbands. I'm sorry but that is out of our control! I would love for all the wives to see their husbands, I would love for all the husbands to be home instead of in the field a month and a half before deployment. But this is the way it is sadly. I've had some 3/7 wives delete me and/or block me over this, and again this makes me sad! Arent we supposed to support each other? Be happy for each other? Be there to hold each other up when we are falling to pieces?? I want to do my best to support the other wives, invite them over when they are lonely.. give them advice if this is their first deployment, but they aren't giving me the chance to do so nor getting to know me! Or one minute they are my friends and the next I'm off their facebook because I saw my husband? Dont make me feel guilty for taking the opportunity to see my husband! I really hope we can rebuild these friendships or give each other a chance. We are strong women and we may have our faults, we may break, cry, be jealous, catty, mean.. what have you! But there is a time when we need to realize we need each other.. and if you don't agree with that than that's okay.. As I further my walk with God and I'm trying to be more understanding, more supportive and more positive, but its so hard when other women are doing their best to cut you down, make you feel bad.. As long as I know I'm not doing anything wrong my conscious is clear. as long as I'm being the best wife I can be and my husband is happy than I'm happy. As long as I'm being the best friend I can be, then I feel good. And as long as I'm living a Christian life and I have Jesus in my heart then I feel amazing, happy, wonderful! And as long as my daughter is happy and healthy, then I can clean the house later, the dishes can wait.. and the laundry will be done sometime.. My family is my first priority. I am proud and amazed of my husband. I have great amazing, supportive and positive friends in my life, my daughter is a beautiful handful and I'm living in the beautiful light of God and I cant thank my husband enough for bringing me back to my faith and for bringing so much joy and happiness in my life. I love you baby!

So girls lets stick together and get through MV and deployment, we are all going to need each other at some point.

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First post of a new outlook.

I had a blog before this one, I deleted it. I was nothing but negative on my last blog. So after some time I decided to start a blog again, but this time with a new outlook on life. In this blog I will write about growing in my faith, my daughter growing up, deployment and military life as well as my new obsession, weight loss. I'm wanting to be a more positive person and surround myself with positive people. I will not delve into the private parts of my marriage, and I will not speak negatively about my husband. My husband is a wonderful man who brought me back to my faith when we started dating. He is the best friend and the best love a girl could ask for. I cant thank him enough for all he has done for me nor could I ever put into words how much I love him and how proud of him I am. I am also writing this blog in hopes when he deploys he can get on it and see how Kinsey and I are doing, see the things he is missing. I will also be doing a deployment scrapbook for him and doing my best to keep a journal. Let's see how well I can keep all these things up! Being a stay at home mom, a housewife and a full time student can be overwhelming. The washer is broken and I can't do laundry. I can't hardly clean while Kinsey is awake but she likes to get into everything, nor can I do school work while she is awake. But I do my best, I love my life. Life never comes without struggle, but struggle makes us who we are today. It molds us into strong human beings. Kinsey may drive me crazy at times, but when I watch her learn something new, I swell up with pride and my eyes fill up with tears and I get the pleasure of being her mother and teaching her new things. My husband may be gone quite often, nights may be lonely, weekends boring, I miss him like crazy, but I wouldnt change this life for anything. He is my best friend, near or far I love him more everyday. He is a true hero in my eyes, a war veteran, brave and strong. Everything I could have ever wanted in a man, I found in him. God has blessed me with a wonderful, handsome caring husband and wonderful father to our daughter. God has blessed me with a beautiful, smart, happy baby girl. My life is hectic at times, sometimes stressful, sometimes uneventful and boring, but this is my life. The life I love with the man I love, my daughter I love, and my God I love :]