New friend.

So today is Sunday and normally I would go to church but today I missed it. I got to talk to my husband last night and we had an amazing conversation. Oh how I love that man. We talked about how we are going to grow stronger in our faith in God and about raising Kinsey and our future children knowing and loving the Lord. I feel so blessed to have a husband who loves the Lord as much as I do. With our love for each other and our love for God, there is nothing we can't overcome. We have proven it time and time again. There is no one else I would rather spend the rest of my life with than my husband. He is such an amazing, strong, brave, loyal, and trustworthy man. We both know for a matter of fact that God made us for each other. There is no doubt in my mind that he is my soul mate. I am a stronger and better woman because of him. So thank you Justin, thank you for loving me through all my faults and mistakes. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for being a strong shoulder for me to lean on. Thank you for this once in a lifetime love. Thank you for providing for me and our daughter. Thank you for being a truly amazing husband. I am beyond excited for the many more years we have ahead of us. I can't wait until you are home! I promise to always love you in all your forms. To never give up. To always stand by your side and support you. To always greet you with a smile and a kiss. To be the wife you deserve. I love you darlin.

Today I made a new friend. Her name is Megan. We have been facebook friends for quite some time and the poor girls husband deployed this morning. So I spent time with her, hoping I took her mind off of things. She is a very sweet girl and very excited about starting to attend church with me. I am wanting to surround myself with other christian wives. Other women who have the same values and beliefs as me. After being spurned and fooled by other women, I have learned my lesson and I know that the women I can really be close with and trust, are those who walk with the Lord. When you walk with the Lord there is a light around you. You are a happier person, stronger, more caring. It's amazing to feel and beautiful to see. So Megan and I just talked a bit, got to know each other and watched Breaking Dawn. Kinsey, of course, took to Megan right away. She is not a shy baby. Megan also volunteered to babysit Kinsey on Justin's homecoming night and the 2 nights we go to Palm Springs! What a weight off of my shoulders! Thank you so much Megan! So after Megan left I was the Academy Awards with Kinsey. She was so cute, clapping when everyone else on TV did. Lol. Then she started throwing her tantrums, as usual. So at 8 I gave her a bath, said a nightly prayer with her and put her to bed. Now I'm drinking coffee, feeling sleepy, but trying to stay awake so I can work on homework. I hate that I missed church this morning but I have an appointment with my pastor on Tuesday and bible study on Wednesday and Megan will be joining me. I love going to church, I love studying the bible, I love sitting down with my pastor one on one and just learning how to live my life and handle tough situations by trusting in God, by walking with the Lord, by growing in my faith. Life is just so much more beautiful when you have Jesus in your heart. I couldn't imagine where I'd be without God. I will always stand firm in my faith. I will never waiver.

So now it's time to get to my Federal Income Taxation homework. I mean of course this class would take place during tax season right?! Lol. This is a tough class, I'm not cut out for math. We disagree on how equations work. Lol. So wish me luck! This might be a long night! I've got plenty of coffee to keep me going :)

Sweet bath time baby!

Sweet baby after bath! Is she pointing at me? Lol.

After bath in her jammies, sleepy baby ready for bed :)

Starting Over.

I haven't done this blog thing in a while. I decided to start back up since I no longer have a facebook right now and I'd like to keep my husband and my family updated.

Today went really well. I got a phone call from my handsome husband at 2am and talked to him on skype as well. I made Kinsey and I pancakes for breakfast. All day long I have been working on laundry and dishes, vacuumed the living room and dusted the furniture. For lunch kinsey had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. She watched Rango while I did the laundry. Then she had a pickle for a snack. She seriously loves those things! Then I took her on a walk in her stroller around the neighborhood. We saw a huge jackrabbit and then a few bunnies, Kinsey loved watching them! It was a very beautiful day today so it was nice to take advantage of it and go on a walk, burn some calories, and look at nature. When we got back home Kinsey watched Joesph: King of dreams. An animated movie about Joseph from the bible, while I cleaned the bathroom. I like that there is animated movies of stories from the bible. I like being able to introduce Kinsey to the bible and to God early on. It is very important that Justin and I raise our children in a Christian home. God is the reason I have this strength and faith. God is the reason that I have the strength to wake up in the morning, make breakfast, run after Kinsey all day, do laundry, dishes, clean the house, workout, do homework, wait patiently for my husband. God gives me the strength to get through my hardest, most exhausting days with a smile on my face knowing that I'm one day closer to being with my husband again, to having him wrap his arms around me. It's so close I can almost taste it! My days are long, my child throws about 10 tantrums a day, breaks through the baby gate and gets into the kitchen about 6 times a day, gets crumbs and snacks all over the floor everyday, can now climb up on the couch by herself.. my neck hurts, my back hurts, I'm tired. But then I think of what my husband goes through, I get to sleep in a real bed, he doesn't. I have heat when it is cold and air conditioner when it is hot, he doesn't. I can shower whenever I want and watch my favorite tv shows, he can't. I get to do all this because of what my husband does. I have no right to complain, because he has it worse.

And although I feel the sting of missing him everyday, I smile, I carry on, I do my duties, because of Gods love for me and my love for God and my husband. Because soon, real soon, I'll finally have my husband back. How luck I am to be married to my best friend, my hero, my soulmate. So I hope you're sleeping good tonight my love, my husband. I hope God is blessing you with sweet dreams. I only have 1 more hour before Kinsey's bath and bed time. And then about 4 more hours until I can sleep. I need to do some more cleaning and do some homework. Remember sweet husband, that I'm always thinking of you, missing you, wanting you, waiting for you, loving you, and praying for you. I love you handsome <3

Just as I think the day is winding down, Kinsey's bath time is in 10 minutes, she is running around naked and I'm getting the movie Bad Teacher loaded on the internet for me to watch after Kinsey goes to bed.. I'm thinking to myself I get to relax for a little over an hour before I dive into the homework. Then of course, Kinsey pee's on the bottom of the entertainment stand. Of course! Well no big deal, it's just pee, I wipe it up. Turning back to the computer to finish setting up Bad Teacher, I turn back to Kinsey 20 seconds later, I see her kneeled down putting her finger in something brown and then making the move to put in her mouth. Took me a moment to register, but she pooped all over the carpet and was now about to put the poop in her mouth! I let out a scream to throw her off her intended target of poop finger in mouth, grab her by the hand and hurry her to the bathroom where I have to shower her off in the bath tub that I just bleached 2 hours before. I give her a 15 minute bath and hurry and spot treat the poop stains with oxy clean. Then I have to steam clean the carpet that I had vacuumed 4 hours earlier, and mop the poop trail off the hallway floor that I had just mopped 1 hour earlier. Oh the life of a mom, when you think your job is done, your child always has a disgusting surprise for you. Well now that my baby is bathed and in bed, the carpet is clean, and the hallway is mopped, I think I will enjoy an hour and a half of relaxation before I torture myself with Federal Income Taxation homework. Yuck! Can't wait to crawl into bed and dream of my handsome husband and then wake up to a phone call from him. I love you darlin.

Mrs. Justine Brewer

After PB&J lunch time!

The start of lunch :)

Kinsey on our walk.

All ready to go on a walk!

Mojave Viper

Today I went and visited my husband today at Camp Wilson with 2 other wives Nicole and Amanda then went again with Brittany! It was so good seeing my husband! To hold him, kiss him, hear him laugh.. I wish I could have brought him home with me! Well upon arriving home and getting on facebook i find out that some 3/7 wives are in an upheaval about us going to see our husbands! We only went out there because they asked us too and said they wouldn't get in trouble, which they didn't. Its sad seeing wives turn on others because they didn't get to see or talk to their husbands. I'm sorry but that is out of our control! I would love for all the wives to see their husbands, I would love for all the husbands to be home instead of in the field a month and a half before deployment. But this is the way it is sadly. I've had some 3/7 wives delete me and/or block me over this, and again this makes me sad! Arent we supposed to support each other? Be happy for each other? Be there to hold each other up when we are falling to pieces?? I want to do my best to support the other wives, invite them over when they are lonely.. give them advice if this is their first deployment, but they aren't giving me the chance to do so nor getting to know me! Or one minute they are my friends and the next I'm off their facebook because I saw my husband? Dont make me feel guilty for taking the opportunity to see my husband! I really hope we can rebuild these friendships or give each other a chance. We are strong women and we may have our faults, we may break, cry, be jealous, catty, mean.. what have you! But there is a time when we need to realize we need each other.. and if you don't agree with that than that's okay.. As I further my walk with God and I'm trying to be more understanding, more supportive and more positive, but its so hard when other women are doing their best to cut you down, make you feel bad.. As long as I know I'm not doing anything wrong my conscious is clear. as long as I'm being the best wife I can be and my husband is happy than I'm happy. As long as I'm being the best friend I can be, then I feel good. And as long as I'm living a Christian life and I have Jesus in my heart then I feel amazing, happy, wonderful! And as long as my daughter is happy and healthy, then I can clean the house later, the dishes can wait.. and the laundry will be done sometime.. My family is my first priority. I am proud and amazed of my husband. I have great amazing, supportive and positive friends in my life, my daughter is a beautiful handful and I'm living in the beautiful light of God and I cant thank my husband enough for bringing me back to my faith and for bringing so much joy and happiness in my life. I love you baby!

So girls lets stick together and get through MV and deployment, we are all going to need each other at some point.

:]

First post of a new outlook.

I had a blog before this one, I deleted it. I was nothing but negative on my last blog. So after some time I decided to start a blog again, but this time with a new outlook on life. In this blog I will write about growing in my faith, my daughter growing up, deployment and military life as well as my new obsession, weight loss. I'm wanting to be a more positive person and surround myself with positive people. I will not delve into the private parts of my marriage, and I will not speak negatively about my husband. My husband is a wonderful man who brought me back to my faith when we started dating. He is the best friend and the best love a girl could ask for. I cant thank him enough for all he has done for me nor could I ever put into words how much I love him and how proud of him I am. I am also writing this blog in hopes when he deploys he can get on it and see how Kinsey and I are doing, see the things he is missing. I will also be doing a deployment scrapbook for him and doing my best to keep a journal. Let's see how well I can keep all these things up! Being a stay at home mom, a housewife and a full time student can be overwhelming. The washer is broken and I can't do laundry. I can't hardly clean while Kinsey is awake but she likes to get into everything, nor can I do school work while she is awake. But I do my best, I love my life. Life never comes without struggle, but struggle makes us who we are today. It molds us into strong human beings. Kinsey may drive me crazy at times, but when I watch her learn something new, I swell up with pride and my eyes fill up with tears and I get the pleasure of being her mother and teaching her new things. My husband may be gone quite often, nights may be lonely, weekends boring, I miss him like crazy, but I wouldnt change this life for anything. He is my best friend, near or far I love him more everyday. He is a true hero in my eyes, a war veteran, brave and strong. Everything I could have ever wanted in a man, I found in him. God has blessed me with a wonderful, handsome caring husband and wonderful father to our daughter. God has blessed me with a beautiful, smart, happy baby girl. My life is hectic at times, sometimes stressful, sometimes uneventful and boring, but this is my life. The life I love with the man I love, my daughter I love, and my God I love :]